no better today, in fact, worse. luckily for the customers, i spent the better part of the day in a ps146 compliance training session. i could not wait for the day to end.
an awesome storm came through in the afternoon. wanted so much to get out in it and just stand in the middle of george street and let it pelt down around me.
did some christmas shopping with miss e on the way home and then had a few g&ts at her place - very calming.
came home to yet another letter, addressed to 'the householder', from yet another collection agency trying to track down the guy that used to live here 3.5 years ago (who i've never met). instant uncalm... they made a mistake sending that in a week when i'm in an ugly mood to start with. called them up and the bitch who answered the phone would not tell me the name of the company so she copped a mouthful from the better bitch (*me! - evil grin*). i don't think i will hear from them again, but if i do, i will report them to FICS - i still have the letter... that will fix the fuckers.
had msn conversations with my niece and with miss em which has calmed down again.
i am blessed. thank you to the people who love me, despite that incandescent streak of anger that glows without warning. thanks also for the 12 dog day bestowed upon me - i really shouldn't bitch so much...
still listening to new order - substance disc one - nice and dark - just what i need.
again, words fail me and numbers are just numbers.
good night.
